Make A Wish

So I'm writing this one rather early. It''s because I've been working on it since I laid my head down last night. Its a poem of a memory, but also a poem of a longing. I have long been in love with the girl that I wrote this for, though things don't really want to work out for us. I will always love her and she knows it. Some times I wish I could go back to the nights when we were together and take her in my arms and show her how I really felt. However there's no reasons for regrets and there's no reason to wallow on the past. What is done is done, I cannot change it. Whatever the good Lord wills for me and for her is in His hands. If we come together again, than praise God, if we go our separate ways than praise God. So here it is a poem on wishing.

Make a wish
The stars are out tonight
Do you see that
They look like a candle
Quick make a wish
Before it fades away
Don't tell me what you wished
Just hold me tight
Promise you'll love me
From this night on
I couldn't live another night
Being apart from you
I love you too much
My heart could not bear
If you told me you didn't
Show me a smile
One brighter than the stars
Let me know that you love me
Can't we stay in this moment
When all seems perfect
Your warmth close to me
Your kisses sweet as honey
So make a wish
A wish so real
It just has to come true
A wish for me and you
That our love would grow
No matter what happens
We'd always make it through
Make a wish
For the happiness you've been finding
That it would last the span of time
Here in my arms is where you belong
So quick make a wish
The night is almost gone
So make a wish
That my wish would come true

On Being Obedient

So today I had an interesting talk with my best friend about what he wants to do with his life. God doesn't always call us to do what we want to do, in fact He often calls us to do that which is furthest from our hearts. If we are obedient to Him He will bless us plentifully. Often this is easier said than done. However prayer and giving your life to God can begin to make this a simpler deal. So tonight I want to write about being a Son or daughter of God and what being obedient means.

Father not my will but Yours
Break down my walls
Teach me new boundaries
Father not what I want but You
Make my life a sacrifice to You
Let now my wants hold me back
Cleanse my heart Lord
Make it a pure heart
Not my will nut Yours
I am not here for me
Father I will serve You
All the days of my life
Teach me Your will
Strengthen me in that which I am weak
Use my lows for my highs
Father not my will but Yours
I will bow my knee before You
My King of Kings
I will do as You command
Lord above all else
Father not my will but Yours

On Facing Demons

So today was actually kind of a boring day. I finally was able to go out and drive through a city and on the highway by myself with out my family breathing down my back. Yeah I know I'm 20 why are my parents still like that. Well it only took two years of actually having my license to be able to drive without someone trying to tell me what to do. Plus its my car so all the better to be free in. But other than that nothing really happened today. So I really have no idea what to write about. Well hopefully that little bit of youtubing helps we'll see.

Can't fight these demons any more
They've reached deep inside
They've taken hold of my heart
Can't you see this pain in my eyes
Where are you now
I need you so bad
I can't find you though
You said you'd be there always
Won't you take these demons away
I'm hurting in the worst way
Father I'm crying out to you
I'm breaking my chains for you
My heart is in pieces
Please mend them
Make me new
I am your creation
Don't let these demons destroy me
The agony is overwhelming
Your love is overpowering
Please shine your light
Bright into my heart
Scare these demons away
And take your place
In my heart

On Getting Older

My car is fixed and I could take off if I wished, but I've got stuff here yet. Some times I think it'd be easier for me to take off and begin my life out there at school in a new place. Other times I feel I'm not really ready to make a life of my own. I mean, it won't really be like I can't drive home when I feel lonely or when I miss my gram too much. I mean my sister moved to Alaska when she got married, that was really hard on her because she couldn't just come back when she wanted. She adjusted well after a few years I know it was rougher once pappy passed away. I had hoped he'd be around for my first year of college but God had other plans. Now its about time, I truthfully took responsibility of what I want in life. No more playing games and saying oops when I screw up. Its time to get my head straight and start living like a man.

I've come so far
You've helped me grow
It's time to go
I've got to make it
I've got to be my own person now
You've taught me well
I'll take the lessons
I'll remember them well
Its time for me
To be who I want to be
Its time for me
Too make a name for myself
You can't take care of me any more
I had hoped you'd be there for the start
But I made it through
I have a few new scars
But I know my mistakes
You'd be proud of me now
I'm going to be alright
Life is just beginning
I'm taking on responsibilities
Just like you said I would
I'm growing up
To be the man you hoped I be
I am going to be fine
I'm my own person now

On Becoming Patient

So, today I got the chance to go fishing again. I went by myself. I decided, it would be a chance to get away from the hubub of life and have a bit of time with God. Unfortunately I have this really bad habit of carrying on conversations with random voices in my head, so it wasn't really the time with God that I had hoped. Plus I just have no patience so I'm not the greatest of fisherman. But I did have some thinking time and I did think about being fisher of men and not just a fisherman. Peter was a fisherman and Jesus called him from his fishing life to become fisher of men. So I thought, well maybe the trick lies in being a real fisherman, but without patience its not always easy. So a poem of patience.

Patience my child
Do you not know
Not everything comes quickly
My children have been waiting
nearly two thousand years
For the return of my kingdom
You can't even wait two hours
For a fish to bite
Patience my child
Will lead you to wisdom
Patience will lead you to me
Patience is a virtue
With Patience comes calmness
With patience comes new horizons
Love becomes stronger
Life becomes easier
You and I become closer
Patience my child
That is all that you need
Wait and pray
Be vigilant tonight
Learn of patience
Patience my love
I will come back
You just have to learn patience

From Words to Poetry

Struggling tonight to write just about anything.

Everything is falling through
I can't believe that my mind is blank
Summer is ending what do I got to show
School is warming up, getting ready to start up
Heading back real soon and I ain't even sure I'm ready
Its a brand new ball game, I better not strike out
This is all I got left
If I let myself down I ain't got no one to blame
Me myself and I that's all I really have
I got a family and friends that I depend on
But at the end of the night it all falls on me
What I do, and the choices I make
They don't make them for me
I can't blame them for my falls
Its up to me to show the world
I am ready for any obstacle they put in my face
No they can't keep me down.
No they won't push me around
This is my life, my game
I'll play it my way
And God'll guide my step, every day
God has got my back my front my all around
I'll step in faith through this world
Because the evil all around me falls apart
Just like a shredded paper heart

About Goodbyes

So tonight I got to see Toy Story 3 and it ends rather sadly, however this was not really my inspiration for the poem tonight. I actually wrote it before I did this part because it hit me hard and I let it flow. So often we don't want to say goodbye because it hurts us too much and we're too afraid to cry. I have learned to say goodbye a few times and it always ended in tears. I've recently lost a friend who once said I won't say goodbye because goodbye means gone forever and I refuse to let you out of my life. Now she won't even talk to me. I miss her now and again, but I told her last we talked that I'd give her all the space she needed and no matter what I still loved her. I guess maybe some times goodbyes are easier then so long for nows. So here is my goodbye.

It takes a lot to say goodbye
But it takes a heart to start to cry
Don't think about the future
Focus on the past
Life is always gonna have its goodbyes
Don't let tomorrow come early
Stay by my side tonight
Remember all the fun
Remember all we had
I'll never forget about you
Just promise to never forget me
You and I were meant to be
This I promise just wait and see
I won't say goodbye tonight
I'll just hold on tight
If I start to cry
Don't be afraid to hold me closer
I'll love you forever
Just don't let me go
Don't say goodbye tonight
Because those words hurt too much
Goodbye means forever
I won't let that happen
So farewell for now
Until we meet again