Another Year at School

So another year at CalU is about to start. Our motto CALU4LIFE!!!! Because you legitimately never leave Cal, they find ways to keep you there four semester after you were supposed to graduate!!! Anyway that's not what I was going to write about. I talked to my girlfriend today for the first time in what seems like ages. I miss her very much and I hope to see her soon. But talking to her has made me see how exciting college can be. She's going to be a freshman this year at UPJ and it makes me think back to my freshman year. All the memories I had planned to keep. Now I look back at my freshman year and wish I had made more memories than, but its not to late, I've got two more years and I'm gonna make the most of it while I still have the time.

I'm staring at my life
Wondering where
All the years have gone
College is almost over
Two more years
That's all I have left
Then its hello world
Are you ready for me
Cus honestly I'm not ready for you
Life is a rushing wind
Gone before you know
Make what you can of it
You only get one
College is supposed to be
The best years of your life
So make the best of it
Don't let it pass you by
Too many opportunities will arise
That will never come again
So make the best of your time
Live a little
Have some freedom
But know the limits
Don't get out of hand
But don't be afraid
To take a few chance
College will go quickly
Don't let it slip away

Follow the Leader

Hmmm, today, what shall I write about you. You and I had lots to think about and we had little else to do. I watched Dead Poets Society today it was great, I saw it once before but I wanted to rewatch it. It intrigued me so very much, and now that I'm older it made more sense and was a lot deeper to me. Robin Williams by far was a greater actor in the early to mid 90s when he did serious drama with his comical genius mixed in. A lot of his newer stuff just don't match up. But any way that was all I really did, beside take a lot of time to think and read. Today I've been trying to find answers to questions I don't have. People say that you can find all the answers in the bible, and I believe it, but if you don't know the questions you won't know the answer when you see it. So today was one of those day where I kept hoping to come across some scripture that jumped out and me and was like hey I'm the answer you are looking for, unfortunately this did not happen. However I did feel as though I had gotten to spend more much needed time with God than I had done most of the summer. And I had some crazy thoughts go through my head some sounded really good so I made them facebook statuses, and now I shall make them a poem and grow it into something extraordinary like every poem should be!

Gotta take a break from this life from time to time
Gotta let your mind be free
So God can take control
You can't afford to lose your soul
Not like this
You gotta give it up
To the one who gave it all away
Just so you can be saved
Don't waste life
Live it right
You've got so much potential
Why you throwing it away
Don't you know
God has got your back
Your life
He planned that out
Before the world began
He knows you inside and out
So why not let Him
Take control
Give it up to Him
Watch the transformation begin
God loves you
He will use you
You just gotta let Him
Be blessed my brothers and sisters in Christ
Follow the leader
Woah that ain't me
Jesus is your leader
I'm a follower
Just like you
We all stumble
We all fall
But God is there
Let Him pick you up
He'll carry you
Til your ready to walk again
And He'll stay by your side
Til He calls you home again
So why not take a chance
God won't let you down
I'm living proof
God can love anybody
You just gotta ask

Jesus in Me

Today has been a long day. Its given me a lot of time to think. Sadly however I did no such thing. I did do a lot of work and really spend time in worship most of the day because I listened to Hillsong United most of the day. So I've had time to worship, and I also had time to talk to God. I mainly just kept praying my car would continue to run well and thanked Him for another glorious day. Every day is a new day to make people see who you are. And every day is a chance to say hey look at me I have the Holy Spirit burning within me. Some times though it seems as if no one notices. Other times you wonder if you are doing enough to make it show. Like today for instance I worked all day without a grumble, and I didn't bother anybody the whole time, in fact they kept coming out to check on me. I politely thanked them when they offered a drink or whatever weather I excepted or not. But I don't know that they could see Jesus in me, but I tried to be a representative of Jesus. So today I even tried hard to keep my patience while driving home even though all I thought about was getting back getting a shower and finding food. I was just plain worn out and I didn't have a lot of patience with anybody driving around me. So I tried really hard to be in good spirits about it, and I think for the most part I was. Up until I saw the train in Brownsville and I was dead set on beating it into West Brownsville where I had to cross the tracks to get to my place. Luckily I did, and I was relieved. So tonight I've really rambled on but its ok because lately my blogs have been kind of short and my poems kind of alright, and tonight I'm still debating on a topic to write on even as I continue to enlongate this blog. So here we go.

Do people see you
When they look at me
Do I represent
You in all I do
Or do I do things for me
Am I walking the path You chose for me
Or am I making my own decisions
God protect me
Keep me blessed
In Your mercy
Let people see
Your Holy Spirit
Dwelling inside me
I want to be Your light
In this dark gruesome word
Jesus,
Do they see You in me?

A Poem

So today has been an entertaining one. My car died on the highway, I stained a deck all day and than I made it home safely again. I gotta go back out tomorrow though. Because of this I have had no time to even pretend to think about a poem, however I'm sure I can come up with something.

I made this poem
A poem for you
I wanted to write
Something nice
Just for you
So I thought of this poem
And I thought of you
Now here is a poem
One you can enjoy
Because I wrote it
With you in mind
You are the meaning
Behind this poem
And though it is simple
It is filled with Love
Because I wrote this poem
Just for you

Demon or Holy Spirit

Tonights poem is brought to you by the Holy Spirit!

Deep inside
A demon lies
He waits to attack
When I am at my weakest
He sneers at me
He mocks my love
He tells me that I'm no good
But he is not alone
For in fact
A shining light
Pushes him far below
The shining light
Is the Holy Spirit
Who guides my steps
And protects my soul
He tells me that he loves me
And I was made in His image
I am God's son
I have nothing to fear

To You oh Lord

Today has been another great day. God has been teaching me constantly. I know that even though I have little patience with other drivers and I'm quick to anger, God is teaching me to be less of these things. I also learned about God's covenants. There were a few and I've learned some new ones that I didn't know about, which was kind of cool. Being back in Brownsville has been great so far, I'm hoping things still go well over the next few days. My knee needs a break from all the running around I've been doing. So all this rambling and really no topic for a poem, how sad.

To You oh Lord
I run with joy
To You oh Lord
My heart is racing
To You oh Lord
My soul belongs
To You oh Lord
I will sing my praises
You have taught me much
You have given me life
You Lord
Have raised me up
Brought me from death
To Life eternal
To You oh Lord
I owe my life

You

So today has been an extremely long day. I do not want to have to make that drive any time soon again. But alas I am safe in my new home and I will slowly begin to unpack everything and make it home to me. So tonight I've got to come up with a poem and I really have no idea what to write.

You
Bright and bubbly, you
Shinning like a star, you
Lovable and caring, you
Always cheerful never fearful, you
Complete me, you
Make my world go round, you
Tell me how much you love me, you
Always there for me, you
Bring color into my life, you
I thank God for, you
I will always love, you
The girl of my dreams, you
Above the rest, you
Perfect for me