Paved or Rugged

Look at the path you follow the most what does it look like? Often times we take the path that's been beaten before us but some times we decided to take the path less traveled to quote Robert Frost. Today I celebrated a my aunt's 50th birthday. I kept saying I can't afford to get old I'm going to work with kids most of my life. Then I was driving aimlessly around with my best friend and we were talking about God and evolution and things that are in the schools and not in the schools because of how this world is disintegrating and I just think that so often we follow the path of those that came before us instead of making our own. So tonight I wanna write about taking a different path.

I've been here before
The fork in the road
I look and see
Briers and thickets on one path
On the other a well paved road
That road worn before me
By many whom taught me well
But now I am on my own
So what path should I take
Be your own person is what I was told
Make your own choices
But does that mean I can't follow you
No but don't make the same mistakes
So here I am
At the fork in the road
The scarier one to my right
The paved to my left
I take my step of faith
God will protect me
As I walk through the briers
And stand on the thorns
This is my life
I'll choose my own path
God is with me always
I have nothing to fear
I can make my own path
And when I look back
I'll know it was best

Hide

I want to say that every day, I pray for guidance and strength and every day I tell myself "Ok Jon you'll be alright today." Some times I think if I could just go some where with my music and not come out for a while I'd be back to where life is taking me and I'd stop worrying so much about the world around me. Being a Christian even to death often gets me criticized even in my own family. I know they would tell me they were just joking around but it really hurts that they don't see what this means to me. I worry deep into my spirit for all their lives they aren't saved like I am and they won't listen to me talk about it either. I just don't know what to do some days. Some times I just want to hide some where and spend a few days with God all alone. I wonder if that would get me seeing straighter. I guess only God would know.

I'm afraid of who I am
I'm not sure of who I'm supposed to be
I want to run far away
Can't anybody see
This look in my eyes
That says I want to hide
Leave this place
For somewhere new
For a time to get away
Leave this world behind
Just me and God
Him talking
Me listening
I know he loves me
He is taking care of me
But I am afraid
I don't like the judgment
It hurts me deep inside
Can't people see
This light in my eyes
The light that says
I know the truth
I want to share it
I want to run away
And leave them all behind
Let God hold me close
And take me from this world
To Him and my family in Christ
I want to get away from persecution and abandonment
To love and compassion
Can't they see in my eyes
That I just want to hide

Freedom

So tonight I'm back to throwing whatever happens to come to mind down as a poem. Yesterday I did a lot of listening to Owl City and feeling lonely without a special someone to call my own. Today I saw the final steps of my car come together and hopefully in the morning I will get to see it get inspected and passed. This would mean I am finally going to be ready to be free. So tonight I think I'm going to write about freedom.

Daddy look at me
My car is packed
The road is calling
I'm finally ready daddy
Ready to be free
When I get behind that wheel
You'll see a new me
Freedom is calling
Can't you hear it daddy
I'm ready to be gone
Ready to be free
Daddy I love you
Don't you cry
I'm finally the man
You hoped I be
I'm finally free
I'm driving away now daddy
One last honk and wave
I'm ready to leave
Ready for freedom
Don't worry I'll call
I'll be on my own
But I know I'll be ok
Daddy I love you
Daddy I'm free

In Faith

"Overflowing with the Spirit my heart wept for the love I don't deserve. God is merciful and forgiving. He is so filled with compassion." This is what I wrote before I wrote the following poem. I however don't really remember when I wrote it. I do know that on Friday night I had wept and it was because of the overflowing love I had felt from God. So without further ado my poem of faith.

Do not fear my child
For I hold you in my hands
Know that I love you
Trust in me
Whenever you fall
I will always catch you
So put your faith in me
Not one hair will touch the ground
I will cradle you like a baby
Know that I love you
My Spirit flows in you
Spread my love to everyone
They will know that you love them
And that I loved them first

A Living Sacrifice

So This one I wrote after sitting on a giant rock and going through my devotionals. I was kinda praying and kinda thinking in poem form at the same time. So this one is kinda an interesting one.

I am not afraid of this world
So take me out of it
I do not delight in its sins
So give me Your Godliness
Take away the flesh
Give me more spirit
Lead me in Your love
Teach me Your works
Make my life
A living sacrifice
For the one who came down
And laid down His life first for me

This Mask You Wear

So one night at Mahaffey I was thinking about how some of the kids going to camp, and putting on a Christian face for their parents, but not truly having God in them. SO I wrote about how we often have mask for certain occasions.

The masks you wear
You have one for each disguise
Out with your friends
Your mask is concealing
Your true feelings inside
At church you hide
Behind the mask of salvation
But you know you live a lie
You are hurting inside
But no one really knows the truth
You are screaming in agony
No one hears a sound
You feel alone
Surrounded by friends
They don't even know you
Stop hiding behind your mask
Let someone love you
Scars and all
He's waiting for you
To give Him your life
He knows all your pains
He loved you to His death
So break free from your mask
Be free in Him

A Calling

So I wrote this one at Mahaffey on day 2. By this point I had starting making friends and I had really starting feeling confident that I really knew where God was calling me, thus coming up with this poem of calling.

I hear You calling
I begin to listen
Listen close You say
You are my child
I have you with purpose
This is my plan for you
Do my will
Lead my children
Bring my children back to me
Father I will do as You command
Bless me with Your glory
Set my path straight
Bless me in all I do for You