Jesus in Me

Today has been a long day. Its given me a lot of time to think. Sadly however I did no such thing. I did do a lot of work and really spend time in worship most of the day because I listened to Hillsong United most of the day. So I've had time to worship, and I also had time to talk to God. I mainly just kept praying my car would continue to run well and thanked Him for another glorious day. Every day is a new day to make people see who you are. And every day is a chance to say hey look at me I have the Holy Spirit burning within me. Some times though it seems as if no one notices. Other times you wonder if you are doing enough to make it show. Like today for instance I worked all day without a grumble, and I didn't bother anybody the whole time, in fact they kept coming out to check on me. I politely thanked them when they offered a drink or whatever weather I excepted or not. But I don't know that they could see Jesus in me, but I tried to be a representative of Jesus. So today I even tried hard to keep my patience while driving home even though all I thought about was getting back getting a shower and finding food. I was just plain worn out and I didn't have a lot of patience with anybody driving around me. So I tried really hard to be in good spirits about it, and I think for the most part I was. Up until I saw the train in Brownsville and I was dead set on beating it into West Brownsville where I had to cross the tracks to get to my place. Luckily I did, and I was relieved. So tonight I've really rambled on but its ok because lately my blogs have been kind of short and my poems kind of alright, and tonight I'm still debating on a topic to write on even as I continue to enlongate this blog. So here we go.

Do people see you
When they look at me
Do I represent
You in all I do
Or do I do things for me
Am I walking the path You chose for me
Or am I making my own decisions
God protect me
Keep me blessed
In Your mercy
Let people see
Your Holy Spirit
Dwelling inside me
I want to be Your light
In this dark gruesome word
Jesus,
Do they see You in me?

A Poem

So today has been an entertaining one. My car died on the highway, I stained a deck all day and than I made it home safely again. I gotta go back out tomorrow though. Because of this I have had no time to even pretend to think about a poem, however I'm sure I can come up with something.

I made this poem
A poem for you
I wanted to write
Something nice
Just for you
So I thought of this poem
And I thought of you
Now here is a poem
One you can enjoy
Because I wrote it
With you in mind
You are the meaning
Behind this poem
And though it is simple
It is filled with Love
Because I wrote this poem
Just for you

Demon or Holy Spirit

Tonights poem is brought to you by the Holy Spirit!

Deep inside
A demon lies
He waits to attack
When I am at my weakest
He sneers at me
He mocks my love
He tells me that I'm no good
But he is not alone
For in fact
A shining light
Pushes him far below
The shining light
Is the Holy Spirit
Who guides my steps
And protects my soul
He tells me that he loves me
And I was made in His image
I am God's son
I have nothing to fear

To You oh Lord

Today has been another great day. God has been teaching me constantly. I know that even though I have little patience with other drivers and I'm quick to anger, God is teaching me to be less of these things. I also learned about God's covenants. There were a few and I've learned some new ones that I didn't know about, which was kind of cool. Being back in Brownsville has been great so far, I'm hoping things still go well over the next few days. My knee needs a break from all the running around I've been doing. So all this rambling and really no topic for a poem, how sad.

To You oh Lord
I run with joy
To You oh Lord
My heart is racing
To You oh Lord
My soul belongs
To You oh Lord
I will sing my praises
You have taught me much
You have given me life
You Lord
Have raised me up
Brought me from death
To Life eternal
To You oh Lord
I owe my life

You

So today has been an extremely long day. I do not want to have to make that drive any time soon again. But alas I am safe in my new home and I will slowly begin to unpack everything and make it home to me. So tonight I've got to come up with a poem and I really have no idea what to write.

You
Bright and bubbly, you
Shinning like a star, you
Lovable and caring, you
Always cheerful never fearful, you
Complete me, you
Make my world go round, you
Tell me how much you love me, you
Always there for me, you
Bring color into my life, you
I thank God for, you
I will always love, you
The girl of my dreams, you
Above the rest, you
Perfect for me

My Love

So tonights poem is brought to you by the letter love. Cause when you find it you know it. I've been in love with this girl for far too long, and now my prayers are that we can keep it together. So a poem for my love.

You got me flying high
My mind up in the sky
My heart's aflutter
You make me smile
Like no one else
Babe you are my everything
Don't let nobody
Tell you any different
I love the way you laugh
I love the way you smile
Your voice is the instrument
I want to hear
Every night before I sleep
Your hands are perfect
Just for mine
I want to hold you tight
All through the night
Whisper I love yous in your ear
Never let you go
You are my baby
I love you sweet lullaby

On Facing Freedom

I have one day left at home and I just don't know what to do any more. I can't stand staying home, but I can't stand being anywhere else either. I'm so antzy to be gone, but I'm stuck with this feeling that I'm not really ready to go. Like something is holding me back. I wish I could wake up and it be Tuesday tomorrow, but I know I still have a day left to go and its tearing me up inside. I have everything but my clothes packed and ready to be thrown in the car but its killing me to see it piled up. I don't know what to do, my brain feels as though it might explode. Normally right now I'd be smoking an entire pack of cigs or drinking until I couldn't feel, but I gave that all up knowing God would take care of me. Yet I struggle at times like this when it feels as though God is on the wayside just watching me struggle. I know it isn't true, but it feels like it is and its eating me inside.

It's eating me inside
This nagging deep inside
I want to be free
Yet I'm half afraid to leap
I need a little push
That bit of encouragement
The voice that says
"Hey, you got this"
I've been here before
But somehow it feels different
Maybe knowing
I'm more free than before
Maybe knowing I really have control
This world that I've been going after
Is finally at my feet
But suddenly I'm not sure
Am I ready for this
I didn't ask for worries
I didn't ask for troubles
All I ask for
Was freedom from home
This is more than freedom
This is newdom
Nothing is as I thought it should be
I can't run back like I did before
It's time to face this
With my feet firmly planted
My mind firmly set
I can do this
I was born for this
I will overcome this