Today I woke up, praying to God. Asking Him why her. He knows I love her. He knows I care. Why when I finally felt He was answering my prayers and giving me happiness, does this enter the picture. Then I came to my senses. Its not about me, its not about what I wanted. So I ask His forgiveness, and I asked to see it from her perspective. She's not scared, she's accepted it. So I have too. Today marks our one month anniversary, and she's in the hospital. Last night I had sent her a text explaining just how I felt. She means the world to me and she knows it. I know she's going to be ok, and I know I'll hear from her today. So I'm going to be strong, and I'm going to be everything I can for her.
So from now on I'm going to look at this world through a different lens. Selfish please, and selfish prayers, are out the window. I'm thanking God every day for waking me up again. I'm thanking God every day for the little things I once took for granted. I know I may have difficulties, and I may have my own issues, but I'm grateful for everything else I have. God has blessed me in so many ways and it makes the few flaws in my life so meaningless. So when I go through my day if you see me smiling you'll know why, and I hope you can be blessed by it. I'm not writing this to shove religion, or God down anyone's throat. I'm writing this so you may have a perspective of how I feel and what I've learned. I pray that you would be blessed, and I pray that I can be a blessing.