Beautiful

So when you think of the word beautiful what comes to mind? A person, A scene, an object, an animal? What about God does he come to mind, what about yourself? You know I was listening to a few songs that have the word beautiful in them, and it struck me that in God's eyes we are beautiful, and God is beauty. God created beauty, God created us. So why do we often forget about the beauty that is instilled in us from God? Tonight I want to express what beauty means to me.

Evil is surrounding me
Why do I see all the ugliness
Father touch my spirit again
Let me see the beauty
I know there is beauty
You created a beautiful world
Destroyed by the fall
Saved by grace
One day that beauty will shine again
Father I am down on my knees
Reach out and make me clean
I want to see the beauty
That which is hidden in me
Father You are beautiful
In your eyes so am I
Only through Your perfect son
The world is beautiful again
Thank you Father
Creator of all things
For the beauty I see
Is the beauty you see
And I am beautiful too

Snowy Dreams

So today we had a nasty storm that knocked out our power for a few hours. It took me back to earlier times when that used to happen. Usually it happened at night and during the winter so you had nothing better to do but go to bed. However I remember one time our power was out for three or four days, that was crazy. I had nothing better to do then go outside everyday and play in the snow, because inside smelled like kerosene heaters and lamps. So in light of the fact that its summer time, and we are just getting past a heat wave I am going to write a poem about winter and snow storms.

Early morning coldness
Settles around the house
Waking up to a cold bedroom
I don't want to get up
Can't I hide under the blankets
It's to cold for school
Look outside
It's a blurry white sheet
Turn on the t.v.
No school today
Jump for joy
Then back to bed
In a couple hours
We'll be outside
Making snowmen
Fighting snow monsters
How I loved those cold snowy days
At the end of the day
A hot bath was waiting
And a warm cup of Cocoa
With a few cookies on the side
Hope to do it again tomorrow

My Sacrifice

So tonight I was going to write about loving like a baby. I got to see and hold my niece today and it was like I was holding a little piece of heaven in my arms. Usually a baby looks at me and screams bloody murder. However lil Evey is the most relaxed baby I've ever met. I love her from the bottom of my heart like I've not love anything else before. But, no my poem is not going to be about loving like a baby. I also learn tonight that my pastor will be picking me up on Sunday to head to a camp for ten days. This is a sacrifice that I feel God is calling me to make. Knowing my sister and my niece are in and knowing my aunt and uncle are supposed to be coming up next week, I chose to say that I am willing to stay all ten days. I need to learn from those before me that know so much more than I when it comes to fighting our dark sides, and trusting in God for everything. So tonight I want to write about sacrifices and God.

I am bowed before You
Lord I laid down my life
I will leave behind
All that I own
To follow you Jesus
I am your disciple
When You call I will answer
I cannot say no
To You who sacrificed so much for me
You died for me
So that I could live for You
I will take up my own cross
To follow in your path
I will laid down my life
To give You the glory
And I will live to call You Father

Summer

Today I went for a walk and ended up out in the hot sun walking down a main road. The reason I was walking was due to a podcast. My Daily Audio Bible Podcast called today the fourth annual long walk. It was a day to just go out walk and listen to God. Unfortunately I kind of focused more on the land around me and trying not to injure myself. Thus I ended up walking all the way out to a road. That was fun but extremely hot. Later I went out to a park and swung on a swing for a while and while doing that I was trying to come up with an idea for a new poem.

Swinging in the park
Joyous and simple
Takes me back
To a simpler time
A time when summer
Meant vacations and relaxations
When school was forgotten
From dawn til dusk
I could roam free
Creating new adventures
Exploring hidden treasures
Being at peace with the world
Summer brought together
Everything a kid could ask for
Summer was endless
Summer was love
Summer was perfect

Lord Help Me

NO idea on what to write tonight, I'm super hot, my bed is broken, and I have no thinking process. All I know is no matter what choice I make regarding my bed it's gonna suck.

In this hot and humid world
All I got is You
It's You and me Lord
That's all I can ask
Father bless me tonight
Teach me patience
In the heat of the night
Show me the ways of serenity
I haven't ask for much
I just ask for peace
Show my how to care
For my enemy and the helpless
I need some wisdom now
But I don't know what is wise
Lord open my eyes
To a whole new world
Let the chaos flee
I want to see
Peace, love and happiness
All around me
I want to breathe
The freshness of new life
I want to start
Living for you tonight

Fact Is

The fact is I really don't know what to write about tonight. I was watching something on tv that made me want to write about soldiers and the war, but I don't know anything about it. Plus I haven't really lost anyone from the war. Sure I know a few people who've gone to war or who are there right now, but I don't claim to be their best friends or know a heck of a lot about them. Then reality hit me, so many of them are kids yet, they are my age. I wanted to join the Military, I wanted to go into the reserves, I wanted to be able to serve my country but I'm not allowed. I've got a disability that keeps me from doing even basic training stuff, so I am never going to be able to serve in the military. So tonight I was thinking of a poem that expresses how I feel, we'll see how this goes.

It was always an idea
Join the services
Help my country
I know plenty that did
Some I used to call peers
Life has its own choices though
Because of disability I couldn't
So now I hear stories
I've listened to artist sing about it
I'm grateful for my freedom
I'm grateful for our military
I'm grateful for my country
And I'm proud of what we stand for
I may not be able to fight
Not in the physical war
No, but I can fight
In the spiritual war
In the emotional war
There's war here
No guns no bombs
But violence, poverty
Sinful nature
Wicked people
That I can fight against
That I can wage war against
There are all types of heroes
What type are you

Great Admirer

So tonight I spilled my guts about my family and more importantly my grandfather to a friend. I rarely talk about my past or my family life at all, and I think its because all this time I hadn't been appreciative enough of what they've done for me. So tonight being the fourth of July and traditionally my huge family would be out around a fire right now setting off fireworks, but over the last three years life has changed drastically. July 18th 2008 my grandfather passed away, changing everything I knew about life. I was angry at first, he was supposed to be there to help me through my first year of college, but he had held on long enough.

I can't be with you any more
I've taught you everything I know
It's time to embark
On your own journey
Life is just beginning for you
Mine however is ending
I know you may be angry
One day though
You'll understand
I'll always be with you
My legacy is yours to continue
I know you'll do me proud
Don't let the mistakes of the past
Hold you back from all your dreams
Make me proud
I know you will
I love you kid
I'll see you soon