The Fire

I had a bonfire tonight kind of as my last hoorah before I head back to school. Things are definitely going to be different this year. I won't be returning home like I used to. I'll be able to say "Hey, I don't want to go home, so I don't have to." Yet a part of me wonders will I still want to? I mean I love my family, but some times I just keep thinking I'll be better off on my own. I sure hope I'm right. But I kinda just wrote this poem as a way of dealing with a number of things. The loss of my pap, the loss of a girl I once knew well and loved, and the loss of a few other good friends. I actually wrote this poem before I wrote this excerpt. So enjoy the poem.

There was a fire tonight
But you weren't there
I felt alone
My arms felt bare
I miss you here with me
Things aren't the way they used to be
My life is so empty
But you can't see it any more
You aren't here with me
And my heart feels as if it tore
Come back to me again
You used to my friend
Times have changed so much
I'm sorry it had to end
I had a fire tonight
It was cold without you
I saw the stars twinkling
They reminded me of who
You and I used to be